(Friday, May 30, 2008-)
+11:45 AM]*
+11:45 AM]*
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hmm.. n ytd my mood graph hits the lowest once again..
somehow my mind juz not wif my body.
juz felt kinda tired n juz wanna leave everything aisde n not to care abt it at the moment.
everydae lookin through those tiring blue, black, grey, green letters.. is so tiring.. i still kinda hav a mindset tat i work as an intern in da office.. hehe.. but da fact is that i m not... actually until now i still dun really get to solve a normal defect by myself from start till the end.. dunno izzit normal a not.. but i wonder is it kinda hrd to do programmin language of wat i neva learn b4 or juz tat i m tired of it?? wonder how da top IT guy in our course jonathan manager to do tat so well, guess its his passion..so outstandin fer a age lyk him to b expose to the society so fast n kinda well known. hmm, mayb i need a break.. hehe cant imagine so fast, wonder how m i gonna go out to work nxt time.. hmm..
kinda miss gym so much, i have been slackin for a long tym, i guess i should find time to go bck dere to start back again. can vent all my mood in dere so i feel better.
hmm, lets look into one of humans behaviour, Arrogant. When one get too good in something, one's arrogant tend to slowly grow within. Alwaz tok wif a tone full of arrogance, neva spare others their opinion and straight away knock over them. Self-confidence and Arrogance, is 2 different kind of things.When there is chance the ones being knock over will get chance to get back at the arrogant ones whenever there is chance at other areas.tats something frm my thot of human.. haha..
suddenly have a kind of feelin to pick up back my magics.. kinda rusty already since i learn them when i was in sec sch..
somehow my mind juz not wif my body.
juz felt kinda tired n juz wanna leave everything aisde n not to care abt it at the moment.
everydae lookin through those tiring blue, black, grey, green letters.. is so tiring.. i still kinda hav a mindset tat i work as an intern in da office.. hehe.. but da fact is that i m not... actually until now i still dun really get to solve a normal defect by myself from start till the end.. dunno izzit normal a not.. but i wonder is it kinda hrd to do programmin language of wat i neva learn b4 or juz tat i m tired of it?? wonder how da top IT guy in our course jonathan manager to do tat so well, guess its his passion..so outstandin fer a age lyk him to b expose to the society so fast n kinda well known. hmm, mayb i need a break.. hehe cant imagine so fast, wonder how m i gonna go out to work nxt time.. hmm..
kinda miss gym so much, i have been slackin for a long tym, i guess i should find time to go bck dere to start back again. can vent all my mood in dere so i feel better.
hmm, lets look into one of humans behaviour, Arrogant. When one get too good in something, one's arrogant tend to slowly grow within. Alwaz tok wif a tone full of arrogance, neva spare others their opinion and straight away knock over them. Self-confidence and Arrogance, is 2 different kind of things.When there is chance the ones being knock over will get chance to get back at the arrogant ones whenever there is chance at other areas.tats something frm my thot of human.. haha..
suddenly have a kind of feelin to pick up back my magics.. kinda rusty already since i learn them when i was in sec sch..
the story ends like this;
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(Wednesday, May 28, 2008-)
+12:16 AM]*
+12:16 AM]*
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alrite alrite, quite a long long long long long while since i stopped bloggin, kinda turn lazy man, every nite came bck so tired.. well guess i will rite a long one..firstly, congrats to sze chong aka dr.gay had finish his internship n left accenture.. well, so fast n he is gone, les a person of our age in our team.. doesnt seems fun at all.. he still have a long journey ahead to continue.. celebrated a farewell fer him on fri as well as da dae b4 fri... bought a zippo lighter fer him, shared among those whom he treated in botak jones session.. done some engravin on it, haha fer FREE.. thanks to BnP old staffs.. miss them lotsa..
n on da first dae he had left, in da mornin when i sat down in front of my com in da office, i juz sat dere fer hours until i knock off usin 100% concentration in dere.. its so tirin man, coz of a defect tat is agin fer daes.. n i have to give n explaination fer the above ppl so that dey can explain to da business ppl.. sometym i find tat its quite hrd to tok to da above ppl, as dey normally dun do da hard work stuff lookin through codes n wanna xplain to them oso dunno start frm where.. den dey only keep askin why, n how come lyk tis... damn man, muz let them try n find out esp when system is down here n dere n environment so sucky.. sure blow up wan... almost gotne bonkers..
n gavin die die keep askin fer solid evidence of da defect n all tis n all tat... hate it man...
n gavin die die keep askin fer solid evidence of da defect n all tis n all tat... hate it man...
n durin my lowest mood somemore wif sickness to work, i suddenly got a call frm yh sayin tat da trip des has cancel as he is enlistin early, its juz totally holy shit man.. last min tis kinda pattern come out, if dun intend to go den dun in da first place decide to go, ppl hav work n hav to take off daes which deduct our pay n still need to spend money goin wif a bunch of strangers, i m not anti-social lah but its juz tat dere is no middle man.. sux man, hate tis kinda last min thing n i was so down aredy i cant b bother much, until now i dun even hav da details of it.. how gd was it.. i swawer tat i wont go wif untrusted 3rd degree frn organisin tis kinda things aredy.. n kinda fcuked up tokin to yh abt it..
n.. followin dae, spirit is better than ytd, was tryin to solve da defect.. hmm sometyms i m really tinkin i shall b da one askin why instead of the one answerin why man.. damn.. dey juz dunno any single shit n juz wanna get da reason frm us who are workin lyk cow but recieve nuthin but compliments only.. damn.. anyway....
tml is graduation dae aredy so fast, da journey of 3 years polytechnic juz ended at a blink of an eye.. lookin bck at those daes.. kinda have memories.. time really flies.. n read newspaper abt malaysia stoppin foreign cars to refuel their car near their borders, i guess its a kinda rediculous
decision man..
decision man..
hmm.. alrite den pen off here, nuthin much, almost cleared my mind aredy...
the story ends like this;
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(Friday, May 09, 2008-)
+12:51 AM]*
+12:51 AM]*
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grumpy...
sometimes when i ask a question, i at least expect a reply.
dont treat me like a transparent or filter me out.
i dont mean that i am a big shot and i must get an answer, sometime its curcial for an answer.
i am just treating you as a friend, i dont mean anything.
dont wait until the last minute when i am needed and then start replying me.
does it mean that i have to get serious then you will respond to me.
damn shitty..
got to rest early, tommorow have to wake up early to pass the shit thing over.
nites ladies and gentlemen..
sometimes when i ask a question, i at least expect a reply.
dont treat me like a transparent or filter me out.
i dont mean that i am a big shot and i must get an answer, sometime its curcial for an answer.
i am just treating you as a friend, i dont mean anything.
dont wait until the last minute when i am needed and then start replying me.
does it mean that i have to get serious then you will respond to me.
damn shitty..
got to rest early, tommorow have to wake up early to pass the shit thing over.
nites ladies and gentlemen..
the story ends like this;
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(Tuesday, May 06, 2008-)
+11:37 PM]*
+11:37 PM]*
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hmm.. have been slackin during work tis few daes, but guess i should start my engine up aredy..
hmm contract endin soon, quite a dilemma to recontract a not..
dere is juz so many things goin on in my head now...
wanna learn drivin, wanna learn divin...
to recontract whether can take off on tat 4 daes to go tioman trip a not..
can save my money a not, need to spend more money on tioman trip..
tinkin of an investment plan.. can find a better pay job outside a not, enlistin fer NS sure wont wan hire wan ma, dilemma.. job gd, but tym consumin, can incoporate my gym session inside a not.. ARRGH....
goin crazy soon, haha... wonder why life have to make so many decisions...
hmm contract endin soon, quite a dilemma to recontract a not..
dere is juz so many things goin on in my head now...
wanna learn drivin, wanna learn divin...
to recontract whether can take off on tat 4 daes to go tioman trip a not..
can save my money a not, need to spend more money on tioman trip..
tinkin of an investment plan.. can find a better pay job outside a not, enlistin fer NS sure wont wan hire wan ma, dilemma.. job gd, but tym consumin, can incoporate my gym session inside a not.. ARRGH....
goin crazy soon, haha... wonder why life have to make so many decisions...
the story ends like this;
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(Friday, May 02, 2008-)
+10:06 AM]*
+10:06 AM]*
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good morning.. its in da mornin in da office tat now tat i m bloggin..haha..
dun really have anything to do rite now.. but not fer long when all the defects start comin to haunt me.. haha.. anyway, wed is quite a nice dae, went to gym wif yh n des who tag up later.. den went to ate dinner n den went home.. so long neva gym, if i can do it everytym lyk i use to b, it will b so damn gd..haha anyway, went to MJ n den stop halfway n den watch soccer tat nite, watch until dozed off..HAHAHA.. first tym man..
n nxt dae which i m suppose to come bck to work becoz australia tat side dun hav labour dae on tat dae, n TG being responsible n worried tat dere is any prob wif his team's work, he request us to come bck to work durin labour dae, was quite sad den but till da vry last dae n he told us tat we could juz stay at home durin labour dae n dun need come to work le.. n suddenly my dae brigthen up..haha n labour dae, went bck home in da late mornin.. ate my lunch slacked awhile n den family-get-together-game, MJ.. haha tis tym finally i won man, my winnin rate wif the PROS are lyk 10%? n den head out fer dinner after shower, den after tat fetch weide n uncle patrick to the pub we used to go last tym, fer drink.. so long neva drink oso le.. was quite njoyable ytd although da pub not so gd coz i keep kena eat tofu by tis lady.. T.T
anyway, saw tis poem somewher n its quite funny, would lyk to share it..haha
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When your own hand becomes your best lover,
When your life-giving fertilizer is wasted
In a Kleenex and flushed down the toilet
You wonder when you are goin to stop
Thinking about what could have happened
That night when you almost got somewhere
There is the coy one who smiles
And looks like she wants to meet you,
But you can't work up the nerve to talk.
So instead she will become one of your nighttime
Fantasies, where you could have but didn't.
Your hand will be substituted for hers.
When you neglect work and meaningful activities,
When you neglect the ones who really love you,
For a shot at a target that you rarely hit.
Does everyone get lucky with women but you,
Or do females just not want it as bad as you do?
dun really have anything to do rite now.. but not fer long when all the defects start comin to haunt me.. haha.. anyway, wed is quite a nice dae, went to gym wif yh n des who tag up later.. den went to ate dinner n den went home.. so long neva gym, if i can do it everytym lyk i use to b, it will b so damn gd..haha anyway, went to MJ n den stop halfway n den watch soccer tat nite, watch until dozed off..HAHAHA.. first tym man..
n nxt dae which i m suppose to come bck to work becoz australia tat side dun hav labour dae on tat dae, n TG being responsible n worried tat dere is any prob wif his team's work, he request us to come bck to work durin labour dae, was quite sad den but till da vry last dae n he told us tat we could juz stay at home durin labour dae n dun need come to work le.. n suddenly my dae brigthen up..haha n labour dae, went bck home in da late mornin.. ate my lunch slacked awhile n den family-get-together-game, MJ.. haha tis tym finally i won man, my winnin rate wif the PROS are lyk 10%? n den head out fer dinner after shower, den after tat fetch weide n uncle patrick to the pub we used to go last tym, fer drink.. so long neva drink oso le.. was quite njoyable ytd although da pub not so gd coz i keep kena eat tofu by tis lady.. T.T
anyway, saw tis poem somewher n its quite funny, would lyk to share it..haha
..................
When your own hand becomes your best lover,
When your life-giving fertilizer is wasted
In a Kleenex and flushed down the toilet
You wonder when you are goin to stop
Thinking about what could have happened
That night when you almost got somewhere
There is the coy one who smiles
And looks like she wants to meet you,
But you can't work up the nerve to talk.
So instead she will become one of your nighttime
Fantasies, where you could have but didn't.
Your hand will be substituted for hers.
When you neglect work and meaningful activities,
When you neglect the ones who really love you,
For a shot at a target that you rarely hit.
Does everyone get lucky with women but you,
Or do females just not want it as bad as you do?
the story ends like this;
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