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(Thursday, May 20, 2010-)
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Well I can see spider webs and dust forming up on this blog. It hasnt been a practice to me now to blog unless i have things to rant. and here comes me, guess i have got lots of things on my head now, hopefully as i go on, it wont disappear. This might be a long post.
hmm.., what happend recently....
had receive my NTU letter for the application of another course, its been rejected and none of any course are offered to me. damn! And so i went for an appeal with the help of terence's english language. I guess my english had reach the stage of atrocious. lacking much vocabulary when i need them. I guess i need to do some improvements on that.
Having my combat shoot at nee soon tml, hopefully i can grab the 200 bucks hanging in front of me. Did quite well for IMT but i understand its different when its on real ground. Hopefully my heart don't beat that fast and heart. Just relax and treat it as a normal shooting.
Another thing to share about my peronal opinion. One person's personality is somehow shaped through that person's background and environment. How the person turn out to be may be due to these serveral factors. For say, sometimes i feel that i am quite stinge and not willing to fork out money for presents or things. People may see that i actually have the money just that I am stingy(This is something not to defend myself as i already said its an opinion) But in actual its due to this environment that i am living in, parents not giving me allowance, i have to support myself and its really supporting myself even sometimes i have to buy my own necessities like food etc. I will let you all to calculate, lets say my allowance for army is 800 a month, i have to pay hp bill the bill depending on my usage and my internet bill, my transport fee, sometimes on weekend i travel alot and thus usage is heavy plus some night i took night rider which is a better choice compare to midnight cab. Sometimes seeing when i am sick, see doctor, i will pay for my own expense plus i have to go for my face review once the medicine is finish. And my daily meals definitely i will need to eat, cant possibly tell me because i really need to save money and neglect my health cant be possibe right. Great money management plays an important role in the situation over here. And i still owe my dad the poly sch fees, and i still have to worry for my uni sch fee!!!!
life just sucks when it comes into money issue esp things like this, i am so reluctant to go handle cause my parents dont seems to support me! Was in the car after dinner and i mention this issue out, father dont even have plans to save a sum of money for me to study, i just kinda feels that he wants his own cpf money for his own and not willing to lend me. I dont really have the kind of thoughts that he will sponsor me for studies, seriously. and my mum, worst still, tell me its my own problem ownself go solve lah, i was thinkin i am so desperate at this point of time hoping to get assurance from either one that will try to help me cover and yet this kind of thins come out from her mouth. You are my mum lei, i dont ask you who can i ask?? Even if i have to work, i where can save so much money as i am supporting myself?? like that how much can i save, i dont need to eat meh??
and when aske father to drive to yew tee for us to go to super market to buy some stuffs, after we came out, he keep naggin waste my time, why need to buy this and that, cannot live without this things?? FUCK it, you are a father in a family, you dont give me money or the house is okay, fucking ask you to wait awhile and this kinda things come out from your mouth. I just wonder how much of religious lessons have you listen in, but all didnt practice out, this kinda simple matter which starts from personal temper control and being as a key factor in the family should take care of the fmily but you didnt!! And all you know is to gamble and pyscho me to this kinda things while you totally have no idea what you are doing. I am respecting you is because i live on you for the pass 16 years but after that 16 years i live on my own, i just merely owe you the house water and electricity fees!! "waste of time" this sentence i will always remember! when i grow old and earn money, i dont know what i will do. i can only say karma. hopefully not. Its just disappointing to see i have such parents, real disappointing, sometime when i grow old i wonder whether i can still look back to see that i have a great childhood times a not.
So friends, pls do understand me some times i have budget and money is abit tight. i have no choice, nobody believe me cause i carry branded stuff around, but its because i use to work when i finish my Os and i have enough money to buy it.
freaking no mood, hopefully tml combat shoot is well done. head for bed time.
the story ends like this;
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