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(Saturday, June 14, 2008-)
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finally the four days of enjoyment ended, has it really an enjoyment? or something else.. hmm..
four days without looking at the monitor, typing on the keyboards, holding the mouse, thinking of how to solve this thing and that thing work out, feels so great, totally stressless, just that another thing pop up..
monday was suppose to go for wedding dinner but due to lack of time and in need of time for packing etc, didnt attend it. met tommy and yh at amk and went to lj house overnight so that we can catch up with the next day's bus. i was kind of amazed by her house, it suddenly gave me a motivation to get back on my millionaire dream. its big and nice, just like jessie ah yi's house. damn its so great. met a whole bunch group of new people from astro as well as those so call seniors i guess. the trip was a fast one compare to redang but the boat trip took abit longer, lucky that day the current is not so strong. guess almost all the days we did went into the sea. trekking was unable to carry out. last second day was thinking that past two days was using leg to swim, so kayak use hand shouldnt be a problem, but in the end the kayak have too much water in it, and i need to return the kayak back to the person and damn i have to swim and drag the kayak back, swim until my leg like frog legs already. furthermore, when trying to flip over the kayak to empty the water on it on a small island not far away from the main island, dunno why got a patch of oil on my knee cap, its just so sticky and disgusting. now i understand why fishes that got the stain eventually get infected and die. i need to give it many scrubs and apply quite an amount of force to scrap it off man. and when was about to kayak back, suddenly the weather took a turn and the current suddenly grew greater, causing cm n lj's kayak to stuck on the sea without moving much as yh was dragging my kayak back, i tried to help push and drag cm's kayak together. it was then i realize the danger of huge wave when you are stuck on water but needed to remain calm and swim or paddle properly in case you get flipped over.
on the last second night, after a heavily "pschology-minded" game, went out with the astro guys to watch some stars. it was quite lucky for me to caught a meteor. its very fast, just a split second when u saw it, and it disappeared. its like a moving star and just another second its gone. and when i was walking back to my room when i went back to sleep, saw a fireball, which is a bigger version of meteor. its orange in color, and its travel period is longer than metor by a few seconds. it just shoots down from the sky, drawing a orange red path in the dark sky before disappearing off. great.
hmm, there is actually not much activity over there to do other than water sports, cant really play volleyball on the beach as the beach sand area is slanted and not enough space. there are not much corals there out in the beach of the paya resort compare to redand lagoona redang. all are just stones. less fishes there too. only when we snorkle at the marine park then we can really see much fishes and corals but still compare to redang's marine park, it also lose. will upload the photo when tommy develop all the photos out and send to me. hmm there was a time i was suppose to hold onto yh's google well but i didnt know i hold it wrongly and it justt sink down, quite deep down, tried to dive down and grab but it seems near but its far, almost lack the oxygen to swim up to. its just super deep man, super scary. then the person dive down with the flippers to help us take up the google. he was great, guess he is those kind of divers that is why he can do it so well.
well, just thoughts of mine as the same as everytime. i am treating you as a friend of mine, i understand, i tolerate, i give in as i know your emotion and your mind is down, but whats more can i do if u dont do your part. i tried to entertain, everybody is giving in because of you, whats more do you demand for? its not like the world owe you everything, and i hope that you dont let your emotion take over your mind and spoil the friendship among us. is it really worth it? you have been reproaching yourself too much, you are trying to destroy and make yourself like a pieace of junk. come on man, wake up your idea. sometimes it felt kinda scary talking to you when you became in this kind of state. i just hope you realize every friend of yours are helping you, not just me. and dont let them down. pull yourself back together. reflect on yourself, think what you should have done instead of brooding over a small thing neglecting the big picture. this is all that i can say, the enlightenment part will be up to you whether you chose to change for a better or remain the same.
the story ends like this;
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